Gosh it's being such a long time i feel so emotional and crappy. I don't think i am feeling alright both mentally and physically.
I can have 200 over friends on Facebook, Tons of people following me on Twitter and 300 over contacts on my mobile. Will they even be there when i needed them or catch me if i ever fall? I would be able to get a room just for my shoes another room just for my clothes and another room just for my messenger bags, but at the end of the day will these Labels give me the unconditional love that i would like to feel. Does it really matters to you that you are in style, you have good looks and dress like Posh.Must you really compete with others to be the trend setter where jealousy sets over everything else.We are all made different and we all have our insecurities and no one is made the same.
People bitch about you and talk behind your back.Sometimes even close knitted one. I think it is okay to that cause even sometimes i do that too.But sometimes i asked myself what's the point all these unnecessary drama useless bitchiness.People do thrive to be noticed i know but whats the point.
Everyone is special in their own way don't challenge yourselves to be another person.You are who you are.Don;t be superficial just to get fame and famous.I know this world works in this way but don't keep catching up and accommodate the world and lose your trueself.Really don't.
On a sidenote i feel guilt all over from previous issues and politics.I know this sounds weird coming out from me as for now i just want to ditch the manipulative bully bitchy fatist creature in me.
Just to let you know i have made far more enemies than i can handle.3 this year and it's only June btw.The worst thing that can happen is when your enemy is changing every minute.K, come to think of it 3 is really little.I used to think that bitchiness is an asset i don't think so now.Friendliness is.
Urgh my life is just screwed up now why must all these happen to me now.Why everything i do now just sucks.I am losing everything i have.I am depressed and feels really ugly. I think sticks are the only solution for me at this moment.
Please ignore me i just had the sudden urge to feel this way.